Find your center
In the winter of 2008, there was an unusual wind storm that howled through our property. These winds were strong, sweeping from Hood Mountain and the east. Shockingly, the force of energy coming from this direction took down seven 100-foot Douglas Firs surrounding our home and laid them gracefully on the earth’s floor. I say gracefully because it was 2 a.m. and we were sleeping; I can only imagine trees of that height falling in slow motion.
Another oddity about this event was that of the seven homes on our lane, our property was the only one hit with this much impact. (As I’m writing this, I’m noticing how many times the number seven is coming up: seven trees, seven homes.)
The question remained for me, why did this happen to just our property? Most of the trees that fell were in one area, leaving a huge space open in the middle of the woods. Very strange.
Let’s fast-forward to 2016. I’ve been inspired to build a labyrinth on our property for a few years now. Guess where? For some time, I’ve realized how blessed we are that the previous disaster was actually an organic clearing to help facilitate the building of the labyrinth.
For those who don’t know what a labyrinth is, it’s a number of circular pathways, usually anywhere from seven to nine, leading to the center. Unlike a maze, a labyrinth has one way in towards the center and the same path out, so it’s impossible to get lost. The purpose of a labyrinth is to be with yourself in a contemplative walking meditation moving toward the center. Metaphorically, it’s a coming home to your own center when the outside world proves to be too hectic, confusing, or when you need more clarity on a particular issue. This walking meditation is done in silence and is your own private pilgrimage, opening yourself to receiving answers to your questions.
I started creating my labyrinth last month and I’ve come to learn that it’s become a reflection of my own life. Let me clarify. Before I could begin building the labyrinth I needed to prepare the space it would occupy. Then I began the calculations to design the pathways and the center. Finding my center of the labyrinth was the most difficult. Most labyrinths have perfectly circular pathways and are free of any obstacles. I have two trees within my labyrinth that I can’t do anything about, and they threw off the centerpoint and messed up my perfect circle. I found it interesting to run up against my need for perfection. I have a tendency to want to figure things out by myself so I can understand them. But I knew after more than an hour of creating a non-circular circle that I needed to ask for help. I couldn’t do it by myself. The help I received had it figured out in fifteen minutes.
Metaphorically speaking, I realize when I can’t find my center in life, I need to ask for help. Not only ask for it, but trust in receiving it. As for the two trees in my pathways, they are the perfect symbols always present in the form of lessons to be learned. Responding to a lesson as a positive experience with appreciation for the gift it brings isn’t always easy, but with patience and curiosity the positivity brings ease to a challenge. So in this case, I’m learning to maneuver around the trees and accept that this labyrinth will be lopsided, and I see the beauty in its uniqueness. Seeing the uniqueness gives me permission to relax within the form taking shape.
Your relationship with money can be seen in a similar way. It’s not always easy to find your center when money’s involved. Be careful not to compare your situation with others; for me that would be like comparing my lopsided labyrinth to a more perfect treeless circle… a disappointing outcome instead of a new creation. When you look at all of the ways you can experience obstacles through spending, earning, saving, and investing, successful money management can seem overwhelming. Ask for help. Create an opening for positive experience giving you permission to relax: you may not have all the answers, and that’s all right. Learning something new offers trust in your own capabilities. You’ll experience more independence and self-worth, and get to know the Warrior and Magician archetypes.
Learn more about your relationship with money: visit www.BuildingWealthFromWithin.com and take the complimentary “Money Type Quiz.” Only you see the results. Or contact me at donna@Building.WealthFromWithin.com.
To learn more about your relationship with money, visit www.BuildingWealthFromWithin.com and take the complimentary “Money Type Quiz.” Only you will see the results. Or contact me at donna@BuildingWealthFromWithin.com.
Donna Colfer has worked in financial management since 1987. As a Financial Counselor and a Certified Money Coach, she blends her financial expertise with spiritual counseling in her private practice in Sonoma. A Valley resident since 1981, Donna and her husband, Randy, reside in Kenwood.
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